After some sleep and ffx-ing, not feeling that angry no more. Indeed, I was so pissed that I think my head must be smokin'. But after some advice and consolation here and there, I realised I shouldn't take these to heart after all. I gotta admit I'm the kinda confrontational person if provoked until over my limit, that's something I can't change. Because I cannot stand it when people, ok more specifically, our very own guys team, hmmm more specifically, some idiots from that team, who can't seem to keep their stupid traps shut. Like, who the hell they think they are to pass comments like that? To put it bluntly, their 2nd placing is made possible by the seniors and very very few selected juniors.
And the best part is, these guys think they are so good, when the truth is otherwise. Hello, if you are that good, most of the time you should be using skills to play, not physical force to push and whack. The former is the problem these days with people in floorball these days. I'm not saying that it's not good to be self-confident; some dose of that actually helps calm one's nerves, I know it does for me, but that is all. I've been in this team and played this sport for almost 3 years - I don't think I'm that good a player, neither do I let my head grow big when I get praises, because there's still
so much things for me to
learn and improve - but one will never see me displaying that sorta unpleasant, how should I call it, "superstar" attitude.
Which brings me to another part of what angered me. Fair enough, I was constantly late for trainings, like yesterday. But damn it, I don't saunter in to the hall like I own the world. I certainly do not behave like I'm the best of all. Does that spell "superstar" attitude? Ever stop to consider there could be valid reasons behind the late attendance? Why criticize and pass judgements when you do not know what is actually happening? Hello, ever heard of "giving the benefit of the doubt"? Giving people the "superstar" label is really offensive, in fact, this label is nothing to be proud of. Putting these aside, it saddens me to see such naivety and delusion... Be realistic. We have had experience with sarcasm and negativity being thrown at the team. That comment about not understanding how we can get 3rd placing, isn't the first one. Stop thinking of these people as angels when in actual fact they are not.
I'm going to let it go, after this ranting. But I can't promise that I could let go of those guys who constantly made stupid useless comments, because who knows, it could be my fist on their faces. And I'm not afraid to do so.
(Wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I sound so fierce, LOL.)
embraced the mystery
// 12:02 pm
