MERRY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! decided to do an entry like that, inspired by NIC =P so here goes. er wait, gonna be super longwinded
as usual so be ready!
Resolutions for 2006:1. no more procrastination.start doing pp instead of stoning in front of the lappie.
2. keep my room/table/wardrobe tidy always.keep things back to where it was instead of just chucking it elsewhere (like the table) to "keep later", which i nvr did.
3. work on my stamina/fitness level.pick up those lazy bones already. it's time for action, no more talk.
4. stop messing with my hair and stick to boring long hairaccept the fact i'm not fated to have nice cool short hair.
5. spend wiselyCONTROL the urge to shop all the time. think carefully before i actually buy something.
6. complete driving and get the darn license.no more naggings from the folks, and legal to drive! =D
7. work my ass off to improve in floorball.brush up on basics and work on the skills. give my 110% in trainings and matches likewise.
8. always appreciate the ones around me.nothing is forever. do not take things and people for granted no more.
9. put the past behind me.try to stop being resentful. no use brooding over some things that can never be the same again. there's a reason behind every happening.
10. do not be so trustworthy.once bitten, twice shy. it's just so hard to trust people (read, GUYS) these days. how am i to know who truly meant their words? my heart has been locked and casted with many many protective spells; not gonna open up that easily no more.
the people who have made an impact in my life in 2005; left their footprints all over my heart:1. ifarmehh thanks for trying to cheer me up all the time when i was at my lowest, esp on my birthday. u guys have been encouraging (and bitchily honest), nvr fail to make me laugh. always there when i need help. and the plentiful songs and videos i get from u guys! (:
2. hema & narinthe pair of u has been my listening ears and advisors this whole time. i know i can confide in u about everything under the sun without feeling awkward. thanks for thinking so highly of me. u know i'm always here for u when u need me (:
3. nic & awU TWO!! how can i ever survive in rp without the both of u!?!? hees i'm so sorry for complaining and talking too much at times, but OH WELL, i know u two love me lah har, so won't mind, LOL. i think i can never recover fully if u guys weren't on my side, making me feel better (ahem, or worse, by calling me longwinded!) about myself.
4. kok ming, qiu yan & pyi soeYES PYI SOE! appreciate your comments and sharing of experiences with me.
QIU YAN! i think i would've died if u hadn't gone out with me during the depressing period. my shoulder to cry on :)
KOK MING! wahahha endless amount of chatting and bitching on the phone works lah. one of the few guys whom i can be totally myself (read, swearing) around with. i know i can count on him for meaningful quotes, interesting stories, and endless jokes, LOL.
5. floorball girls adroits2005 will be VERY DULL without u girls. woohoo with the clubbing and chalet (where i embarrassed myself totally), i know i can count on the team for some crazy loud laughs. i'm really grateful for the concern showed when i got drunk/high and broke down completely. *MUACKS* no matter what conflicts there might be, love u all the same. let's work hard for the upcoming ivp and league!
6. wshadn't even plan on writing abt u, but oh well.
things ended so badly between us that being friends is like outta the question. those 4 months with u had been bittersweet. no mistakes, it was a totally different world for me when we were on; i actually thought, "oh he's the one for me, no doubt". stood by u, didn't care if u were the lousiest or a national keeper coz really, it didn't matter. alas, u made me realise many things - nothing is forever; love isn't all about changing ur other half's bad points, but learning to accept them for who they are. u never accept me for who i am; your "i love u" means nothing. but, thanks to u, i'd never felt better abt myself like now; i'm stronger, and i love myself more. :)
yay i wanna do highlights of my 2005 too, lols!20th aprilbeginning of a doomed relationship.
april - augustdays that were so sweet i was almost diabetic.
5th septemberthe cooling period with no limit.
19th septemberthe breakup. my breakdown.
decemberover him. completely. :)
like i've been saying, 2005 has passed simply too quickly; a bittersweet year for me. welcome 2006, may this year be a better one for me. and yes, happy new year to all once again. and i quote terence, "may you get what you deserve".
embraced the mystery
// 5:12 am