[Watching - "The Twins Effect"]
Firstly, happy lunar new year to all!
Yup watching the movie on tv now, malaysian channel actually, so it's in canto and i don't understand a thing except for the english-speaking parts. Hmmmm in fact, i juz switched it on not long ago and it's at the part where ekin cheng got killed(he became vampire). There's this song playing at the background that's so sad...anyone has that song? And whoa, muz mention that edison chen is so cute + hot :p
Finally got my room packed, although the upper-decked bed still has lotsa mags on it...but no space lah =/ Took some time to go through some personal stuff...thought about the past; the times i used to spend with the usual crowd, secondary school, relationship...time really flies...
Haha...kinda miss the feeling of having someone there with me when i'm down and alone again...even though i've declared to myself that i won't wanna like anyone or anything like that since it'll nvr work out...i remember almost a year back, i was really bad and sarcastic towards this guy who liked me whenever we meet face-to-face, but it would be a different case while chatting with him on msn cuz i'd joke with him and such. Weird of me right. But...I would love to have a nice sweet & innocent romance like the kids in my blog pic though...*shrugs* dreaming of the impossible again. lol any ways, my love life is a bore. If someone ever wanna write about it, bless the author cuz the book will never sell! Hmmmmm wait a min, i have
no love life.
Bleh i cried juz now while bai nian-ing to my parents. Dunno why but emotions overcame me. But i'm glad i did cuz i think this is an effort on my part to solve any rift i have with my parents. I juz wanna be happy again...don't wanna cry over little things again...no doubt i tend to cry when i'm super duper angry, but this is different; i'm upset :(
Aiyah
blabbering again. Anyway, gotta wake up early tml...although i'm tempted to finish watching this funny movie on channel u...
I love disney fairy tales - so romantic and funny and sweet and cute and juz plain nice! :) but my childhood quite deprived lah, only watched a few b4. So hint hint, hope to watch them
all...lol XD
embraced the mystery
// 12:48 am
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
"Desperate Housewives" rocks. I see so many familiar faces in that show; the twins from "Big Daddy"(Lynette's twin kids. I think so lah), a half of the sisters from "White Chicks"(Brandi, who broke up Susan's marriage) and Teri Hatcher from "Superman"!
Kays i've cooled down lots. Realised the previous entry was a really angst-filled one. Anyway i had the reunion dinner juz now...or should i say, reunion breakfast.
Watching the 4th epi of "Desperate Housewives" now. Hehe dled it the whole nite from cxl. Can't wait for next monday liew, muz watch to see what happens. And did i mention how funny this show is?
"We're raising little terrorists." -> a line from the show, Lynette's husband telling her about the kids.
embraced the mystery
// 10:36 am
i'm getting sick of everything.
first i was told that we are gonna have the reunion dinner tonight, since my bro who's working tml, can't come home to eat with us. then now, only after asking my gran, learnt that the dinner is off. Both brothers haven't come home yet.
what the fuck lah. having reunion dinner without a member tml. i hate it when this kinda thing happen. how contradicting.
REUNION DINNER IS NOT CALLED REUNION DINNER FOR NOTHING.
whatever. i dun wanna care about this kinda
TRIVIAL matter anymore. if it doesn't matter much to them, why should i get so worked up about it?
getting angry over the slightest matter nowadays. and i feel that whatever i do now, is always
WRONG in their eyes.
the flower that blooms in adversity is the most rare and beautiful of all - "Mulan"
i'll
never be that.
embraced the mystery
// 12:00 am
Monday, February 07, 2005
Eh what is up with ppl sending emails abt updating address book?! =_=
Blah hungry...woke up at 11 plus today. Head hurts like hell. Been getting headaches nowadays.
We were up against OSB Owls yesterday; lost, 11-0. Argh i don't like the ground; so slippery. Kept losing the ball at the side cuz i couldn't control properly. And er, that's all i remember about myself. I think i muz have suffered major stm cuz i'm fuzzy about my performance =_=lll Hmmmm jill came at around the 3rd period. Got rather stressed up, sigh =/
After the game, she talked to us for almost an hour in a nearby classroom. Talked about team spirit and such, which led to team talk after she left. Glad about this cuz things were thrashed out. I hope this will bring us closer :)
Alamaks that #11 coach, goodedness, screaming his head off at his players. I actually heard and saw with my own eyes and ears, him shouting "SHUT UP" at the players outside the court. Like what the fuck?! Geez someone gotta take up some anger management course man. And yup, borrowing this from yati's blog which was said by joey: we shd be grateful that we have jill and sonia. Even though jill can be really harsh with her words...sigh i dunno, but i'm scared of her :(
Chatted with jae'n on the fone for almost 2 hours. Chill lah woman, it's now part of the past now. If u can't let go of the past, it's hard to continue with things in the present and future.
Wah lau, Canadien Pizza has gotta employ better ppl lah. Called up to place an order juz now, and i can't frickin' hear the woman lah. So damn soft and unclear, let ants hear izzit?! I think ants also cannot hear lor.
Ok waiting for the pizza, i'm gonna watch "Mulan" on vcd! Heez saw the trailer on tv and juz couldn't wait! :D
embraced the mystery
// 2:11 pm
Sunday, February 06, 2005
My eyes and lips are feeling hot now. Does that mean i'm having a fever now? Cuz i feel like that when i'm down with fever =/
I've felt like that b4 in sec3; the night b4 english compo exam.
Now my stomach is painful, like those gastric pain.
Aiyah what is up with me?
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"Ghost" is so nice. Demi moore pretty sia, although it's last time. Sad lah...the story...And it's so scary when the bad guys died; strange shadows captured them. Wooo freaky. So ppl, next time do not do bad things...
embraced the mystery
// 12:49 am
Saturday, February 05, 2005
AIYAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!! I ACTUALLY FORGOT TO WATCH GHOST ON CHANNEL 5!!!
TSK TSK TSK TSK TSK TSK TSK!!!
embraced the mystery
// 11:19 pm
-Bleaching my hair in the process-
Got the powder from sonia, thankfully, otherwise i would be wasting my money on the pink dye. Many thank-yous to sonia :)
Aiyah i feel sick now. Not becuz of my cough or what. It's like, u know that terrible feeling one has when sick? That one =_=
And my body is aching like mad. Neck and back pain, leg got blue-black due to the match last thurs - got whacked by someone's stick. Think i never sleep properly this morning(yes u read correctly; i slept at 0245hrs), that's why neck pain. Or maybe it could be juz someone sitting on my shoulder............lols =x
CHOY!!!
Oh yeah, a big thank-you to fish + nic + sonia + joey for accompanying me buy my clothes. Alamaks feel guilty lah, i was like indecisive and didn't know where i wanna go.
Ouch, my stomach's been hurting since this morning. Dunno if it could be what i ate. Torture, sigh.
embraced the mystery
// 9:57 pm
Friday, February 04, 2005
It was a
blast yesterday.
Played against the guys and got thrashed like hell.
Aye embarrassed about myself; broke down in the 3rd period. Juz couldn't take it anymore, so angry with myself. Then the final straw came - the ball hit my leg and went into
our own goal.
I seriously do not know what was my problem. Prolly like what they say, we really wanted to win this badly...and increase the pressure on ourselves unknowingly...? But it certainly felt good to cry my heart out, although i feel so silly...everyone saw!
My apologies for any mistakes i made. Let us all put this behind us already okies? -hugs-
There is NO I, ME or YOU in floorball. There are only WE. One will affect all and all will affect one. Just like the dominos; when one falls, the others fall too.
-Sonia
embraced the mystery
// 10:34 am
Thursday, February 03, 2005
moody moody in the morning. kept hmmmm, tearing for no reason. blahhhhh.
did a video for CNA. got help from zaki + ronald + zul. asked help from some others initially but they juz refused to. Geez will it kill to act gay? what's up with guys and egos?! whaaaaatever. anyway the 3 dudes did a fantastic job.
BIG THANK YOUS!!!
got rather irritated by her. I mean, it's like, she's trying to be so directive and all bossy that she doesn't even give me a chance to speak. hey, i'm trying to give an option to make things simpler but she juz pushed my hand away, continued talking and won't listen to me at all. she wants it
HER way all the time. i don't mean she's not nice or anything but sometimes she juz gets on my nerves in ways like that.
Ah forget it. apparently they can work without me
butting in.
embraced the mystery
// 1:27 pm
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
oh damn i juz recalled, that my brother's 21st bday is juz tml! and i haven't got him anything! shit...and i dunno what to get for him! any idea?
embraced the mystery
// 11:18 pm
"give her a call, otherwise she'll get worried."
hah worried? is that so?
whatever. was unwilling to do so. but my gran glared at me till i make that call. then she nvr pick up her fone. "there, i've called her but it's she who never answered." phone rang and it's her. told her i've reached home blah blah blah monotonously, can't really be bothered to talk much.
a while later, she called again, asked me to check for her something. told me "in the living room" and wasn't clear with her words. in the end, it was in the DINING ROOM.
hah, now when i step into the house, my mood changes.
think i'm bad holding grudges against her? whatever. hah and i don't think it matters much to her at all. after all she puts part of the blame on
me. so be it; besides, what can i say?
contradictorily speaking, sometimes i feel bad/guilty for holding grudges against her, particularly when she's feeling down at this moment too.
ahhh i dunno what to think anymore.
maybe i'm a bloody fucking jinx.
i'm such a pathetic creature.
sometimes i really wish i have someone...a shoulder i can cry on...
my gran? nah, later she think i'm nuts.
sigh.
embraced the mystery
// 10:20 pm
"You used to be so chatty and happy. But now u always look so sad."
That's what my fren juz told me.
Maybe? I dunno.
But gotta say, cheered up when i'm in school :)
My eyes were hurting in the morning. Mebbe cuz of...hmmmmz...
Cognitive is a drag today, blehz.
Should i cut my hair shorter?
embraced the mystery
// 3:07 pm
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
both of them reckon i'm partly to blame.
said something like, if i had gotten up earlier and get ready earlier, she wouldn't hafta rush. it wouldn't have happened.
i know i'm always slow, getting up later than i should. i know that. but i wasn't even rushing her yesterday.
it had happened and i'm supposedly the cause of it.
why?
upset. guilty. yet downright pissed. do they even know how i felt yesterday? might seem fine with a smile plastered on my face...but
do they? does she knows?
of coz
i know how she felt then and now. but that doesn't mean she can juz vent it on me. on us. and this isn't the first time the very-unreasonable-side of her venting frustrations on me.
and if she can recall,
she is the one who suggested sending me to jp everyday for school, not me.
now there doesn't seem to be any happiness in the house. like it has been sucked away. and to think cny is only a week away. with all this tension, this cny is prolly gonna be a sucky one.
been getting headaches frequently. prolly cuz of my eye? i dunno *shrugs* who gives a shit about it anyway?
my heart is crying.
embraced the mystery
// 5:47 pm
Boohoo my feet is hurting, no thanks to the new slippers. Feeling as if they are biting me! Ouch ouch :(
Am in the library now...doing some work on science...blah think i'm gonna get a poor grade for it, sigh...
I was an angry girl doing UT this morning. Darn connection not working and went to IT Helpdesk. I dislike going there. Didn't complete the last qn even though i had 4 mins left cuz MY LAPTOP WAS DYING! 0% of power liao! Then when it went on standby while i was still doing the test, lolz sorta whispered "f*ck!" angrily, and there was a guy juz next to me =x Gosh why have i become so vulgar in talking?! Don't answer that :p
Ok time to shift my concentration back to work.
Heez i like my layout :D
embraced the mystery
// 1:16 pm
Yup, a new layout again. This muz be the...4th one? Heez i juz love to recreate the designs, although the format is pretty similar. Took this sweet cute picture from bao na. Don't think she'll read this...but still, xie xie :D
I had wanted to study for tml's science UT but guess what? It totally slipped off my mind! =_=lll Luckily the topics tested(except chp10) are those that i paid attention to...although i don't wanna keep my hopes too high that the test would be easier this time!
Ooooooo i finally bought the havaianas sandals! :D Like what she will always say, "many xie-xies" or "many thank-yous" to B1 buddy nickee!
Bought pink hair dye too. Sharing it with a few fb girls. Can't wait to colour my hair.
Now I cry, alone in the dark...
Please, let everything goes well for my family...
embraced the mystery
// 12:20 am