tomorrow at this time

Sunday, September 03, 2006

long entry, be prepared.

sunday
there was a war at my house!! a dog war!!!
i have a dog now! heh, it's a white maltese-mixed-with-i-dunno-what; we reckon it could be jack russell coz he is soooooooooooooooo hyperactive and resembles a jack russell in many ways. lol his name is yogi, as in yogi bear u know hahaha. WELL as i was saying, there was ewok, chewy, yogi and my bro fren's dog named er, boy, in the house juz now. noisyyyyy sekali! anyway here are the mischief-makers:

yogi the lamb in disguise! hahahah.

boy, the one who should be named chewy(chewbacca) or ewok instead.

ewok the astronaut =X lol everyone was making fun of his microphone.

past pics of chewy. he's grown so much that he's slightly bigger than ewok now lah.

the 2 darlings in the house.

monday
watched charmed all the way till 6am. yes yes i've gotten scolding and i've learnt my lesson =( pesta sukan-ed with ntu storm and tada! we lost. nth much to talk abt except, as conceited as this sounds, deep down i know we shouldn't have lost. we had such an advantage over them and yet...anyway it's history, get it over and done with. this goes to show that we not only need to train even harder, teamwork need to be build up as well. because really, i ain't no feeling any communication nor spirit which had been there during ivp.

sighs why does everything hafta come now when i'm down and broke? the dough has been depleted pretty much lately due to payments here and there macam i've been throwing it away liddat, and now one more is coming up in the form of 20. i haven't shopped since aussie trip - i don't think it was even shopping when i was there - and now, just when i feel i could fork out some to get myself a new pair of slippers...guess it's not possible anymore for now. it's not that i'm not willing to fork out or contribute, i am more than willing. but considering that i'm always on a tight budget these days, it's not easy at all to fork out especially if it's a big amount.

to add on i've never asked money from my parents for the things i buy or pay for. in fact, i haven't done so since sec sch. i pay for whatever stuff out of the allowance given to me. and now, the thought of asking them to buy me a new handphone is giving me a headache coz i don't know how to open my mouth and ask. i'm not from a rich family, my parents aren't rich people. the place one lives in do not determines how well-to-do one is, and this is one misconception many people have. can't help getting defensive but i get really annoyed when i get comments that "aiyah u rich girl what" or anything close to that.

perhaps i'm just too softhearted for my own good, and i hate this. i just have this inability to say "no". and because i just couldn't and i don't know how to say no, i tend to get into trouble and stuff -.- right now, me simply just wanting to buy something nice for myself is also too difficult a feat, because i'll end up analyzing and overthink, if it's worth it to get or if i really need it. my friends also kinda get the brunt of my never-ending questions when i'd set my eyes on something lol. aiyahhhh my birthday is coming soon lah and i would love to pamper myself but i doubt that's possible too. lol i need lessons in saying NOOOOOO.

this really sucks. and don't anyone dare condemn me for being a miser or whatever shit with money. it only goes to show that you truly don't know me at all.

WELL, enough of complaining. this blog has been full of complaints lately, bleahs.

replies to tags:
haj: I MISS U TOO SITI!! wishing u could come back for ivp coz we need u!
fish: WOMAN~ of course i miss u lah u this kind very hard to forget tau! =P
liying: yah lor old liew lah, hais.

embraced the mystery
// 10:33 pm