terence is right. the world is just me me me me and more ME. i'm sick of this selfish trait so many people have. moreover to make things worse, my predicted grades are the most horrible i've ever gotten, and it's making me depressed. i've never gotten such grades before, and this sem has definitely made a huge dent on my gpa. who can i rant it to? huh? i just wanna run away lah from everything okies. from studies, my problems, other people's problems, family problems, SO MANY PROBLEMS. it's not that i'm not willing to listen to others u know; i'm more than glad to help them in whatever ways i can, and i know i'm not the greatest friend around, but why can't i have the same treatment? why is it that sometimes i could feel insincerity emitted from friends, especially those i trust and am close to?
sighs. i know i've made a mistake before by practically shutting myself off from all friends because of a stupid blinded love i had for someone unworthy of my affections. fine, mistake acknowledged, but has it been accepted? am i still being punished for my blunder? have i isolated from all friends now? have i been there for those who needed support? have i taken the risk of offending friends when i gave brutally honest answers and opinions?
i'm rant-free now and i feel lighter now. these accumluated frustrations have certainly been held back for too long. thanks to the ones who always know what to say. i really appreciate it.
got this from rupert; a quote to think about.
you are strong when you are weak, you will know it when you experience it.
embraced the mystery
// 9:24 am
