there's so many things i wanna address that i just don't know where to start. lately many things have been getting on my nerves, as much as i try to keep them under wraps, i just can't. what is the blog for if i won't vent my frustrations in it? i'm disappointed, with a big D. i'm just tired already lah har? i'm sick of being a nagger/reminder/advisor. what's the point outta of this when they aren't heeded? does this mean i shld stop caring? i'm tired of it...
seriousness during training - i couldn't put more emphasis on it.
yes true, we have fun and we laugh and etc, that's the norm in trainings. but it gets on my nerves when i see
no effort being put in. and i'm not even talking abt court training, it's the physical that puts me off more. people aren't running properly during fartlek, many aren't giving their all to sprinting when it requires them to do so. and this is what happens when janelle isn't around. come on girls, are u so bad to the extent that u need janelle around to babysit and scold and nag at u to RUN? this is for ur own fucking good, if u're not gonna do it properly, then just stop already, don't waste your time. physical training is to train up ur bloody stamina, strength and endurance.
this is gonna my last year taking part in IVP. i'm really hoping we can clinch a position better than 6th. we played so much better than ever this IVP that it must have surprised detractors who reckoned we were just gonna kena thrashed again. all i want is just for that good performance we put up to continue. seeing that we don't have yanzi as our goalie anymore, i'm hoping and expecting the current goalies to work hard and fill her shoes. i have nothing more to say abt this except, i used to have faith in them. right now, i'm not sure anymore.
i'm so stupid. didn't i already say that i won't care no more? and here i am, getting pissed off over matters like this again. and it's not even abt my studies! not abt myself as well! i might as well just spend time thinking where else i can play floorball right, somewhere i can make a higher and faster progress. at least this is a focus on myself, and not any other stuff that probably doesn't deserve my concern no more. i'm nowhere near good, and i'm yearning to reach that level. but considering the circumstances, when can i ever be there?
sometimes i wonder if i'm really fortunate to be where i am now.
embraced the mystery
// 10:20 am
