i am so negative.
i have thoughts of benching myself, and that using another defender in place of me would make things better. but no, banishing these thoughts like NOW. i know myself; i'm neither very skilled nor fast. i'm definitely not helping myself if i were to give up just like that. and i dowan to let my team, my line, my defender partner, my coach, and everyone else down. i'm not gonna let myself go down like that. being depressed isn't gonna help me improve a single bit at all.
therefore, i'm sorry people. but thanks, for being so encouraging always. *hugs to all (:
embraced the mystery
// 11:48 pm
