BAM! side hip was where the impact occured, followed by the left side of my head. stunned, breathless, and injured, i laid there pretty still, till everyone thought i'd passed out. but no, i just didn't wanna move coz it was freakin' painful! this has gotta be the worst fall i'd ever gotten. and the best part is, i'd totally forgotten how i fell.
we won tp! 2-0! hees so happy and proud of the girls! they did well =D though i'm sure we could've done better. so girls, let us play to our fullest potential in the future games alright? :)
personally i felt i wasn't playing my hardest at all. same old weakness during the game - kanchiongness. few times i screwed up totally; made bad passes and all. ruyi had to keep on lecturing us on what we should've done as defenders and etc. sigh, i'm really disappointed with myself. felt like i've let her, and everyone who had faith in me, down. i...i juz dunno...ruyi seemed so sure of my ability liddat, by what, calling joey and i "the best defenders in the team?" to call aw that, i couldn't agree more. but me...? that's dubious, isn't it? =/
i'm sorry that all this negativity is coming back to me again. just got me thinking, how have i been helping my team when all this while i'd been screwing up? will it be for the best if i punish myself by leaving the team, and stay away from floorball?
i hafta say though, i'm seeing the hard painful fall as a lesson to me, for being such a screw-up all this while. now i'm worried that i might not be able to play in this saturday's game.
embraced the mystery
// 10:47 pm
