suddenly i just realised why i'm nervous; what is actually bothering me.
it isn't about the year ending. it's simply about the month December, which is due to arrive in a few days. and yes, i dread it. all the reminders of the past would come back and haunt me - our plans, his birthday, etc. i think i've developed a fear of term breaks, considering the fact that the last one was hell for me. so afraid...i don't wanna plunge back to the depressing darkness because of these memories.
sigh, phobia of relationships already lah.
thank god i have plenty of things to do during december.
embraced the mystery
// 2:11 pm
