woweeee almost a week since i updated. ack abit lazy lah, haha. hmmm since i have so much time.........and i'm damn longwinded......and u guys love to read my entries...HAHA =P
mondaymcb lab! eeks, it was ok lah and luckily NO LAB REPORT! went running after school, unfortunately not very long; just 3 rounds because there were people spraying those stuff to kill mosquitoes and i couldn't breathe properly =/ played some floorball. and goodness, salming is a nono for me; my passes tend to be harder than i would like it to be, and they ain't grounder passes. nat and rafidah bought canadien target 36 lah, the one sonia recommended. my heart is itching like mad man...but my pocket's got sucha huge hole in it already.
tuesdayi wore my specs to school and many ppl took it to try. later on i saw, 2 ppl's display pic on msn were of themselves wearing my specs, lol. went jalaning with nic, stopped by pasta mania to makan. hehe, it's been a long time since i ate that man...hajar joined us later, and we proceeded to jalan more. ohh and tt woman bought nail polish, a colour which i felt was damn nice. and she bought the same top at 77th street too! haha except hers is green. heard yan bought the black one, hmmm...sekali one day all of us wore it to school! =D
wednesdayce talks can be a complete bore. couldn't keep my eyes open =/ same effect i got from a certain fac, who puts me to sleep (shhh i ain't revealing who). visited yati's house, and woooo i love tt roti kirai thing, very nice! and her cat so dao, lol. aisyah has lent his her baju kurong...i shy to wear this sunday lah...
thursdaytraining day! looked forward to it...yikes i played like shit lah...my shots were haywirish. drag or risk shots executed during drills were so lousy, that i think i'd slapped my forehead a million times. ackk that's a bad habit. selection is gonna be next week. hmmmm, i won't say what chances i have. competition or not, i'm still gonna work hard to improve my stamina and skills. i know where i stand, in comparison to other players in singapore - the bottom half - and that's what's making me work harder. after training, aisyah + yati + meiwei + me ran to century square to buy a bday cake. so tiring! and on the way back, it was like running a baton relay, or should i say...cake-passing relay...and i still can't tie cherry stalk with my tongue! tskk how do ppl do that sia, so difficult!
fridayi felt so paisei with the way i dressed in school. it may looked ok and normal but i juz felt weird lah, like too girly already. lab was pretty fun, except i dozed off while standing up, only to jerk awake when i almost fell backwards. oo yes thank you, i know very power. i got commented all the time with this, "PLEASE BE GENTLE WITH THE AGAR". tskkk, i am gentle person ok! bleahs. ooo my group and i decorated the tiny biohazard bin on our bench.
there it is! is the photographer good or what?
i did tile painting after class. yay so pretty, hope they put mine next to yan's coz our themes are of the same topic!
i was stuck in the container for an hour! no keys left with me at all...thank goodness daniel opened the door and offered to lock the container, otherwise......ooooo played a bit of floorball when i went down to the arena. yes, in long sleeve blouse and skirt. my shots were totally koyak coz i cannot move flexibly. my cousin's wedding was so cute ok; star wars theme. they walked in with this cute star wars video playing, to star wars music (duh), and their photo slideshow was star wars-ish too. oh, i broke my previous record - drank 4 glasses of red wine (i still hate the taste). and bleahs, my vision spinning already. i felt i couldn't stand or walk straight for long. by the time i reached home, it was 12 already and my head was woozy like mad, thus, i didn't do my rj. i wanted to do it in school but it's so difficult, sigh. oh well...BUT I WASN'T DRUNK OK. i knew and could remember what i was talking, or blabbering...
my other cousin and me. eeks i look bad. and drunk.
hees, i'm disguising as a malay girl tml; going jalan raya with the floorball girls. fun fun fun! means today is study day, since there's a microbio ut on monday. my btt's the following day. sigh i hope i get to profile on the disabled athlete, but i haven't got a reply...and my dad might sponsor me in buying a new floorball stick! yay!!
a big sorry to ted. didn't go with him to the gym this morning...had a drop too much last night, so...sorry!
WAKE UP! THIS IS THE END OF A VERY LONGWINDED ENTRY.
crazy...i think i am sia...
embraced the mystery
// 11:17 am
Sunday, November 06, 2005
this is mad. i slept at 4 and woke up now! yawning like mad but eeks, can't get back to sleep no more. but yay! there's aladdin series on tv now! =D and wow, i love this song by alanis morrisette; it's actually a favourite. her voice is crazy! if only i can do this song - sad to say, my attempt at impersonating her sounds horrible.
so i didn't get the fila shoes at imm. turned out the ppl at the imm branch kept size 7 for me instead of 6. arghh and they kept avoiding answering me when i enquire them abt it; my brothers were waiting outside in the car and i didn't wanna be too long. tsk, if you ppl kept wrongly and didn't have the size, then tell me straight lah. do i look like those kinda customers that would start screaming and be unreasonable? NO! i've worked in sales line before, i'd know better than to be a bitch (customer version).
went out with ifarm again on friday, though winnie's missing :( yes yes i miss u woman! haha! jennofer came to pick me up in school; i was worried she might get lost so i asked her to give me the license plate number of the bus, and i will board the bus instead of her looking out for me. bleh there wasn't much for us to walk about so we headed to bk to eat; i was starving like hell. AND I'VE GOT MY SHOES! hees juz a simple basic black ones. and i couldn't resist buying this gorgeous necklace jenno pointed out few days before. one more woohoo thing is..........i got myself a new pair of geeky specs! it's orange-brown in colour, and damn i'm loving it.
lol what is up with my expression man.
went out with hema yesterday, it was kinda last minute notice but i'm cool with it. had so much talking and laughing and bitching ^_^ we did a good deed - donated some money to some charity stuff which both of us have forgotten what it was abt.
the product of our kindness.
yikes i juz couldn't stop looking at necklaces, those beaded ones esp, they're just so pretty! got a long pretty white one that has some shells on it. had our dinner at the same bk i went with jenno, and more laughters erupted of course. there was this guy who looked damn girl, but his voice sounded like a duck. both of us juz couldn't tahan, kept laughing nonstop. this hema huh, got so many theories of how women should be treated - many hilarious drama mama acts. i told her, she and her friend should just do a standup comedy, and being themselves would be funny enough to get a full house.
bleahs ok, i'm babbling again.
i feel so...enlightened and relieved, that things actually ended. come to think of it, it's like a blessing in disguise for me. oh, and if lying eases your soul, then so be it. may i just say, there's so much freedom for me now, since i don't have to worry if my bf would get jealous or being possessive if i hang out with friends or do things which would take me away from him. i don't hafta worry if every step i take is another mistake to him. i forgot how fun it is being single, how good it feels being just me...though, sad to say, because of you, i find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me, esp guys. do they truly mean what they said, or simply just great pretenders?
so girls, u know u better watch out. coz some guys are only about that thing.
this applies to the guys as well. u know u better watch out. coz some girls are only about that thing.
OH AND ONE LAST THING! i will be ah chong's jie mei when she marries in 5 years' time. and and, my seat will be just next to the red table. THANK YOU AH CHONG!
embraced the mystery
// 10:31 am
Thursday, November 03, 2005
when a guy finds ur crying irritating, forget him already man. this means he ain't worth your efforts no more. ha, i sound so hardhearted, but that is prolly what i have become now. i know i'm not supposed to base my judgement on what ppl say, but at least i ain't so biase in my thinking no more. and the truth is always ugly and cruel.
power rangers!!! hees watching it now, but it's ending already! arghhh, too bad lah, slept at 4 lah...was waiting for my dl to finish and chatting with hema...and i've finally watched a complete epi of "sex and the city". this is a good show man! damn hilarious, and some things they say, are very meaningful actually.
suffered cramps in my left calves suddenly juz now in the morning while sleeping. yikes i hate it when it happens, coz the muscle contracted till so tight that it mfing hurts.
so i went out with ifarm yesterday! yay was glad to see winnie! it's been like a month since i last saw her. and shit i forgot to return her money for the drinks again -_- hees i bought 2 tops of the exact design but different colours, and i lurveee it! ted gave me an idea of how i can dress up! wooo damn retro lah! but damn, i juz can't find the ideal top, thus i hafta settled for the 2 tops. oh this reminds me...i wanna get those long black beads necklace, and the white linen pants from giordano! OH! AND I AM GETTING MY SHOES TODAY! the fila at wisma no longer carries size 6, so imm is where i'm gonna go pick it up before meeting the girls to go hajar's house.
i feel so sad for all the poor ppl i saw ytd while i was out. it's like, juz when i thought i'm suffering, i feel so selfish when i see these ppl. they are much worse-off than me...and here i am, complaining abt what i have, what i don't have, or my broken love life. sigh, never take what u have now for granted...appreciate what you have now.
i'm just a question, waiting to be answered. and apparently, u weren't the right one, as much as i thought i wanted you to be.
embraced the mystery
// 11:25 am
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
i have passed basic evaluation!!! =D
actually huh, it's no mean feat lah -.- coz damn easy, and it's not the actual test; something juz like prelims. the earliest and most convenient date to take the test is on 15 nov! bleahs so late lah, but no choice, coz there aren't any available slots next week.
gonna go out later! hema couldn't make it, so i'm going with ifarm. BUT, i will be meeting up with her this fri, so woohoo!
i feel silly saying this, but...i feel proud of myself. like instead of rotting my life away, i'm equipping myself with skills that will come in use in future, which is driving; i'm doing notes to study; i'm doing all i can to improve in floorall...yeah sure i'm still resentful abt being forced to learn driving but seeing the bigger picture, it is gonna help me in one way or another. one more thing to do is to complete unfinished task, and gain more confidence. how i'm gonna accomplish the latter? hehes...u'll see...
ok my food is here! =D
embraced the mystery
// 1:30 pm
wah, tt leo decarprio is quite hot sia. haha watching "man in iron mask" now. and he's like, doing things to attract the girl he likes AKA seducing her lah. and this girl is already attached. tsk tsk bad...but he's very intriguing. very romantically appealing in "romeo and juliet" too, haha. ok praising him is like weird, coz i nvr really like him at all. but to be at the receiving end of say, his words and intense eye contact in "romeo and juliet", goodness i think i will juz melt lah.
so i struggled to do MCB notes today. ack didn't complete it. i juz can't focus, and the topic is not easy to understand, not even with 6p.
i'm so hungry now...=( last time i ate was dinner at 5 plus.
things to do hours later: basic theory practice + evaulation, outing with ifarm (haha weird sia use this term), and note-sy-ing!
sigh there isn't any training this week. and i'm dying to play floorball......
embraced the mystery
// 12:42 am
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
it's a nice bright day today. if things had happened differently, right now i might be getting ready to go out to receive one with open arms which have missed a certain presence. here i am now, fighting that nervousness growing as the time draws nearer. ain't got no idea why i'm feeling nervous for.
what does love mean to one nowadays? is it juz for that particular moment when they said that 3 special words, or for a lifetime? honestly, i really wonder why there are so many out there who can say those 3 special words so easily, and the next moment, it's like they nvr meant what they said. what, is love just some play thing now, something u can make use of while whispering sweet nothings?
i know i can never do this. i'm just not made to be like that.
(don't bother to tag this entry pls. not fucking interested to have any comments.)
embraced the mystery
// 12:24 pm