i'm home. today's molecular and cell biology. it was ok; jocelyn is our fac =D well i managed to focus and do my work, though i tuned out as soon as my group has finished presenting. i went to read past chat logs and past blog entries again. tsk tsk, i juz can't keep my hands off them, can i? ah...i felt happy today, nothing affected me actually, until i read the things i mentioned above...
i am
not a perfect girl. i make mistakes;
i'm only human. but
dammit, i'm a good girl no matter what i've done and not done. i don't flirt (unless it's my own bf, duh), i don't sleep around like other girls (yes there ARE girls my age or even younger who sleeps around), i try to be nice to everyone,
i don't fucking go for looks in a guy. it may not be obvious but when i'd truly fallen in love with a guy, i'd love everything about him and trust him. i don't fucking approve of cheating on the other half. sure i may seem to be praising myself but fuck, this is how i truly am. i know i made a lot of mistakes in the past but DAMMIT EVERYONE MAKES MISTAKES! i'm not fucking lil' miss perfect.
i juz wanna slap myself awake properly, when i shld have been long ago. there are a 1000 reasons for me to give up, but why do i hafta be so stubborn in the things that i believe in?
till this present moment, i'm still the same.
the loneliness at night makes one miserable so easily.
i do not dare to think too much, as i'm all alone.
my shadow grows longer as the sun starts shining,
i walk aimlessly in the cold street.
haven't heard anything from you; i miss you.
don't leave me if you love me.
if you wanna say you don't love me,
i don't wanna hear you say the words out.
won't you shower me with tenderness once more?translated the song from "ai wo bie zhou". reckon i did it badly. blah WHATEVER! rantings.
don't tell a person u love him/her if u don't truly mean it as forever.
love is for a lifetime, not for a moment.
embraced the mystery
// 5:17 pm
