I'm in sucha loss now.
Well, got to know that i'm not required to take any of the 2 given elective modules. So i thought, since i'm not passionate about doing a job in future that involves biomedical science - thus i won't be wanting to go Monash to do a degree in bms(if i can make it lah, that is) - i might as well juz get the diploma and pursue my interests.
I told my dad this. And he was like, questioning me what are my interests and what i wanna do in future. It juz struck me that i do not know what i wanna do at all. Couldn't answer him; not even abt my interests like psychology. I know it's prolly silly to wanna pursue psychology lah, but...sigh i dunno...i juz dunno anything anymore...my dad is like, kinda upset that i've decided not to take the module at all. He thought, since i have this chance, why not take it and go all the way?
I'm really weak in science, and i expect lotsa workload and stress - yes i know, it's juz all part and parcel of life. I'm afraid that i cannot make it at all. What if i fail halfway(yes i do have that much confidence in myself)? Gee i would be wasting my time like hell. Aiyah wo bu zhi dao already lah.
On the verge of pulling all my hair out. I do not know what i want anymore.
Juz a question to all: Would u take the elective since it can give u a higher chance to go to Monash; juz for the sake of getting a degree, but it ain't ur interest at all?
Oh and juz in case u're wondering, i'm not saying i confirm can make it lah. Juz some assumption.
So tired.
embraced the mystery
// 10:08 pm
