tomorrow at this time

Thursday, March 31, 2005

ooooooo do u know do u know do u know???

OC season 2 is back!! Tonight!

my blog song is being played in one trailer!

lolz :D

embraced the mystery
// 9:20 pm

i think i feel more refreshed and energetic now.

napped like 2 hours plus juz now from 6 plus. not getting enough sleep these days and not eating at the right time. like yesterday, had gastric pain when we were leaving jill's place; the pain erupted to the stage where i feel like puking =\ and juz now at 4 plus, felt so hungry(yes AGAIN! although i've eaten wanton mee at 1 plus) till no strength, so weak liddat =_=

i hate this. my gran nagged at me abt it. and i juz realised that i've been like, going out everyday these days! boohoo i wanna go swimming soon b4 the hols~

and ermm can i juz say how cute utt is. keagan kang and karen tan are so funny in this show. oh, that guy who's acting as karen tan's young bf, yah he's quite cute too huh, i actually saw him in real life b4 seh. and and and, linda liao pretty sia.

k i think i'm done with complaining and praising. back to work(if i have some).

embraced the mystery
// 8:43 pm

Wednesday, March 30, 2005

i wanna have a dog!

My godma brought her dog - a shih tzu - juz last sunday and oh my goodedness, it's so darn cute!! Unlike the usual shih tzus which have browns in them, the colour of her dog is black and white one lor! So funny, it sorta chased my maid and somemore my maid is scared of it lor! Hahah and its name is ewok, apparently from star wars one.

Went to jill's house today for lunch; she made swedish food for us, with the help of sonia + nic + hajar + nad. I think the food is great, EXCEPT FOR THE VEG! Liew, she ermm, made each of us eat veg can! And the veg included celery! My face was so constipated when i ate the celery lah! Bleah x_X After lunch, we sat around on the floor looking at her photos, then toured the house. Heh, the house is really cosy, has the nice homely feeling :) We settled down at her sisters'(martha and marlene) room - their room so bluey and cosy! almost doze off, lol - to chat, and oh, played some silly games, one got nickee and hajar's mouths full of marshmallow! We had a quite-serious talk, about the team and their coaching. Sigh i guess they're really not gonna coach us anymore...gonna miss them...:(

oooo noticed the new template? heez i love it :D but argh, i was hoping to make my pic under "me" as fading image slideshow...attempted many times but failed =_= if anyone knows how to, help me alrights? :D

and ermm, had sucha sweet dream last night :))

embraced the mystery
// 11:36 pm

Sunday, March 27, 2005

I love watching "Miss Congeniality".

Caught the sequel with the old crowd. Although it wasn't as good as the prequel, it's still damn funny lah. Don't ya juz love movies where females are the ones kicking ass? I sure do, and that's also what made me wanna take up martial arts :D And once again, i got made fun of about being with ru hua :p correct, winchong?

Was supposed to meet fish and jae'n, 11am at orchard mrt. Couldn't wake up in time cuz i slept at ermm, 3.30am =x But b4 i slept, i smsed both of them that i'll definitely be late. Jae'n replied at 9 plus i think. Exchanged a few smses b4 dozing off again at 10.30am, lolz.

Oh well, i finally met them at PS, after changing so many venues. The weather was freaking hot and to make matters worse, i was slightly unwell, bleh. Fish and jae'n bought stuff but i didn't; didn't know what to buy. Settled down at cafe cartel where we ate till so full that "we can sleep while walking"! Walked all the way to coffeebean at centrepoint and slacked there for almost an hour, b4 leaving for cineleisure, then heeren - we sat at the fountain for more than 1 hour lah, enjoying AND criticising the music videos played - and lastly paragon where we met jill and sonia. THEN walked to taka since the two of them wanted to eat. Depsite walking so much, felt so darn full and nauseous when i see pasta. Right anot, fish? :p

Blah i was late in meeting them for movie; reached at 9.40pm. But luckily, when we went in and settled down, tada juz nice the movie started.

Oh no, i'm hungry now...

embraced the mystery
// 12:57 am

Friday, March 25, 2005

Today's FOP meeting was sure long; till 4 plus. Woo the MC toured the phoenix park since that place would be used during the camp. Gotta say that place is real freaky. Finally had the chance to enter the ex-execution room where the platform is still there. Scary...

Went off with the fb guys b4 the meeting actually ended; watched their friendly against SIM. Jae'n ref the first period, then fish did the 2nd and 3rd period. Can i please say that the referee from SIM is damn bloody kayu, with a captial bold K. Okay i've seen a handful of biased referees but nvr till the extent of this SIM ref.

I was so unlucky lah can. Kept kena scareded by lizards; mind u, i actually screamed - yes high pitch somemore. First at phoenix park, then at the water cooler in the canteen of pasir ris pri sch. Hmmph yati was laughing at me :p

After the match, went to yio chu kang station to look for my family as we were gonna pick my bro. And can i juz say how blind i am? My mum + gran + bro's gf were juz standing in front of me when i came out but i juz kept walking. After waiting for a like 15 mins for my bro, woohoo we went makaning at newton! It's been a long time since i ate spicy stingray. And goodedness did i mention that i've been eating so much particularly at night!?

I've gotta do something abt this. Boohoo.

embraced the mystery
// 1:36 am

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

yesterday's teambuilding activity was so fun! :)

initially was feeling rather awkward around my team members. was worried that the day would not turn out well since, gotta admit i'm not close to them. but it went really well, got to know my team members better. love the whale-rider most, followed by high elements. my team did whale rider first and it was so funny! we were trying to balance - took 11 min 58 secs - and when we succeeded, all of us froze in our positions for 1 min! For high elements, i did the one which requires me to climb up the log and jump to catch the bar. Well i caught hold of the bar but didnt hold on to it and drop down. Woo it was scary initially but so exciting!! :D but bloody hell, when we were at the spiderweb, was practically feeding mosquitoes lah! really had lotsa fun :)

bleh i woke up at 6 plus for this activity lah! so tired; slept at 3am can! Was frantically printing stuff and my printer went bonkers on me =_=

Ooooo i had sucha nice dream last nite! Dreamt that my mum bought me a dog! Heez been wanting a dog since young but my parents don't allow :(

went to school today to do some admin stuff for fop. then that fish woman dragged me along to meet this guy i/c of cheerleading. so weirded, cuz we dunno wat to talk about with him. stefan came later and the meeting started. whoa gotta say, stefan is damn professional and smart, coolio to the max.

after the meeting, stefan offered fish and me a ride to town when we were gonna walk to the bus stop. hahahahah fish sat at the lever area there! for more details, refer to fish's blog, and it's very funny k :p went to meet the guys. goodedness couldn't make up where we wanna go eat. ended up at cineleisure's BK. liew they talk so much crap, but funny! proceeded to paragon to check out a shop that sells floorball stuff too. walked around a bit b4 settling down at starbucks. wah lau the guys nonsense lah! the 5 of them bought soya milk from jollibeans lah! then sponge was like, "the most we shift half the table outside starbucks lah" rubbisher lah that guy.

yay gonna go watch "Ms Congeniality" tml after fop meeting. then gonna go pasir ris to support the guys; they having friendly against sim. all the best to ya dudes! :)

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
these days i'm really happy. but i'm also confused. i thought things are how i thought they were when i found out abt it. but now, realised that the situation has changed, back to how it was b4, or at least that's what i reckon. issit because of me or wat? hmmmm...

embraced the mystery
// 11:45 pm

Monday, March 21, 2005

-Friday-
Weeee went to sentosa for the island-hopping trip. It was really fun; underwater world is soooooo cool can! saw so many things, Gracie the dugong in particular. And goodedness, she was shitting at that time! And i touched a starfish and stingray! Anyway, we went to grab a bite b4 heading to the ferry terminal to (duh)take a ferry to St John Island via Kusu Island. THE RIDE WAS NOT ENJOYABLE AT ALL! SO bumpy that even me, who don't get sea-sick, felt like puking! What's funny is we only set foot on St John Island for less than 10 min! The whole ride was 2 and 1/2 hours lah! madness!

Oh oh, then yati and i were like crapping like mad. Yati was saying maybe got sea monster, that's why the ride so bumpy. Then i say, what if the sea monster pop up its head, then the ferry run over it? Then liddat become hit-and-run accident liew. Yes we were THAAAAT boreded.

woohoo i think it would be really interesting to be a marine biologist :)

-Sunday-
Had dim sum with my family in the morning - it was my dad's birthday - and i was so happy, seeing that everyone was smiling and joking and juz so happy :)

Went to the adidas sale at expo with my family after the meal. Met nic there; i was so blur i didn't see her at all! Bought my court shoes + thick headband + shorts; they came up to 105 bucks! The total purchase was like 255 bucks and we're entitled to 5 water bottles. I love the silver one but they didn't have it, so got the black and blue ones. And shit lah, the bloody shorts is too small lah! Ahem no comments about that. Regret buying that; 30 bucks can!

We played against Swiss Pink. Gotta say this is prolly the roughest game we've played so far. I was so damn angry. Kept getting pushed. And there was one time when the bloody referee didn't blow the whistle when i got pushed. i was like shouting "EH PUSHING LAH!". Kayu lah the referee. Then one of the pinkies was in the bloody criss and I shouted out to the referee but she didn't blow as well. ARGHH IRRITATING!

-Today-
Received a call from jeffrey this morning while i was preparing to go work. Had to rush down to school to pass him the forms. Slacked in the library alone for almost an hour b4 making my way down to work. Was really lethargic and super unwilling cuz i thought that my day wouldn't be good. Surprisingly work went well. I had a fun time working esp with the supervisor whom i'm quite scared of. Haha silly me.

Oh oh oh, and i saw jeanette aw aka ou xuan today!! She came into the shop and bought something. So pretty cann! And she ain't stuck up seh.

Was watching the movie "Saw" juz now in my bro's room with my oldest bro. Was watching like the last 30 mins of the show? Goodedness full of suspense and so damn depressing. Imagine being in their situation...nono i don't wanna imagine! So scary! No one to resue me outta that place...:(

Do u onli look for me when u have problems? Why is it when i have a problem and wanna talk to u, maybe it's juz me, but i get the feeling that u're disinterested...i feel like i'm drifting away from u...sigh...maybe it's juz me thinking too much lah...*shrugs*

embraced the mystery
// 12:56 am

Saturday, March 19, 2005

i dunno what's up with me. getting so *********. before, i won't be but now, i'm getting tired of it. what's worse, it seems as if i can't be cuz if i do, i'll be seen as a bloody petty bitch and be hated by ppl. can't stand it.

embraced the mystery
// 10:07 pm

-Fish [mama says: "puki mak kau pala buto" dynn says: "it mean go and get tissue" says-

omg so funny. group-chatting with fish + suriya + dynn + shallum. Wah lau they teach fish wrong things! her nick on msn now so vulgar but funny =x

i finally got a zen micro! white one! heez :D

ack shall update more about yesterdae and today later in the afternoon. woohoo gonna go yati's block and play floorball! :))

embraced the mystery
// 1:19 am

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

-Monday-
Was working at JP which is super near my home...heez and surprisingly, i enjoyed work that day. Although there was a lot to do, i love it! Haha strange...but well, the day did not end according to my liking...

-Tuesday-
Went to school for FOP meeting with swollen eyes. Er...yah swollen; don't ask. Anyway, i kena into MC - managing committee - and last min i was informed tt i gotta say a speech in front of everyone! Hurried my way through the speech so quickly that yati could only hear me say "Hi i'm sherilyn" :D After the meeting, went to ate makan at pasta mania where i almost puke cuz i couldn't finish the pasta at all! But something was very wrong with me yesterday; i ate a small waffle later, followed by hot plate chicken rice at puncak when i wasn't even hungry!

Hmmmms anyway we almost skipped training again cuz there's simply too few of us! Including bernice, we onli haf 7 ppl lor. How pathetic is that?! Getting kinda irritated that now many don't come for training much lor, like have this "don't go oso nvm one wat" attitude. I dunno lah...i could be wrong but this is how i see it lah. Hajar, who was feeling sick, still came for training lor. Sigh what is happening? This is not the RP Adroits i know.

Ah whatever lah. Well the 7 of us - me, nic, yati, fish, joey, bernice, jasmine & hajar(although she didn't train) - had so much fun!! We played 3-on-3 against a team made up of inline hockey players & moosettesz. I think we played really really well particularly in passing. It's like, the passes are more accurate and to blade side. Super fun although it was tiring. I played till my whole face red! Heez :D

-Today-
Supposed to meet my class at Harbourfront MRT Station at 10am. But ermmm, i couldn't get up from my bed at all, and fell asleep after reading lynn's sms. Woke up at ermmm 10am =x Well i reached there like 12 and yay off we went to sentosa. When we reach there, OMG SO HOT CAN! It felt as if we've walked 1000000km b4 finding saw + siling + pauline + bryan there - they were there at 10am lor! - and finally we settled down. Heez lynn + shu ling + me went to 7-11 at palawan beach to buy stuff and ended up tanning there. Lolz it was so funny, cuz particularly shu ling and me were eating mee siam in the middle of the beach in the hot sun lor! Before we left that area, we er, made a human figure on the sand...with two humps and contours? BUT IT WASN'T MY IDEA! Right anot shu ling? :p

Played in the water for like 2 hours; heez i drew "RP ADROITS" on the sand :)) buried my legs in the sand too, lol. We went to feast at sakae sushi; i ate 2 chawanmushi, 1 cha soba, 1 plate of 6 tekka maki & 1 plate of 5 gyoza. Yes i was a hungry hungry girl and i lurrrvvveee chawanmushi to bits!

Wooooo nic called me juz now and told me that the plush toy which i posted the pic up previously in an entry, can be bought at Action City! heez i'm so gonna get the plush AND the keychain! Woohoo i'm sucha happy girl today :D And somemore i'm going sentosa tml again lor! But this time it's a school field trip, which means i can't attend FOP meeting for MC tml =/

Wahahha super duper long entry.

embraced the mystery
// 10:11 pm

Sunday, March 13, 2005

argh feeling all frustrated again about today's match. dunno why. sigh.

i'm tearing again.

embraced the mystery
// 10:22 pm

Hahah ru hua on tv now!

Was watching 3 tv shows at the same time juz now! "Baby Geniuses" on ch5, that ch8 variety show with ru hua in it, and "When I Fall In Love...With Both" on ch u. Heez, the babies in "Baby Geniuses" are so adorable! Then this chinese movie in ch u quite nice; seen it b4. One of the stories is this girl, who slept with 2 guys(her ex-schoolmate & ex-bf) almost around the same time, got pregnant. She went to both guys and came clean abt it to them, but none of them wanna take responsibility; like don't want the baby. Later, both guys wanna take care of her.

Omg in the end she died. Something abt she bled then fell into coma; her child suffocated or something. So poor thing sia.

It is love that brought us together => this quote from the show. so sad liddat sia.

Love is not an easy thing to handle. Seeing someone u love with another, or falling in love with 2 ppl...painful...

embraced the mystery
// 9:41 pm

sigh. i think i suck, can?

i missed a free hit again; hit off-target! this happened last week liao and now again.

scoreline is 1-0. we lost. sigh we could've prevented the conceded goal but the ball went through my freaking legs and i wasn't fast enough in hitting the ball away. that particular moment kept replaying in my mind, and i can't stop it. feel damn bad abt it.

during debriefing, felt like crying so much......but i didn't lah. don't want another embarrassing episode.

boooo i missed the part where we were giving yanzi our surprise! :( but at least i gave her a hug! :) woohoo the cake yummy rights :D

yucks i hate having headache.

embraced the mystery
// 4:22 pm

"Boy, I fall in love with you...Ji geum ee soohn gahn doh"

Heez one of my fav BoA songs - valenti - so nice!

Ok what the heck am i doing, still awake at this time. Tml gonna go work after match and i expect to do OT again! Boohoo :( gonna be deadbeat...then on monday, gonna work again! But lucky it's gonna be near my home.

Well i was almost set on quitting my job at Perlini's. To be honest, i work till i sian liao. Very tired and blur always. What made me set my mind on it was this incident: it was my first time using the new credit card machine so i didn't know which receipt to give to the customer. I actually gave the customer the merchant's copy instead! Sigh...my senior was like, "why didn't u call me over?" and i juz dunno what to say.

But now, i guess i'm not gonna quit so soon, after some persuasion on my brother's part. What made me not to quit as well is this info i got from my bro's gf: the girl whom i enjoy working with the most, can really talk a lot without feeling awkward with, and on good terms with, is back in PS! So happy can :))

Woohoo my bro came to fetch me and his gf; we bought chicken wings on the way home. Heez the 3 of us feasted on the nice fried chicken wings and chili crabs which my gran cooked! Goodedness i really gotta cut down liaoz; hafta do lotsa running and swimming during the hols!

Oh yah, here's the usual: my [calendar] for the hols in march. So pls make appointment in advance with my secretary.

Wahhahaha i mad liaoz. Kays eyelids can't stand being open liaoz. NITES PPL!

embraced the mystery
// 1:19 am

Saturday, March 12, 2005

Firstly, happy birthday to our dearest princess yanzi!! :))

Heez i am sucha bad girl, skipped 3rd meeting of cognitive. But i got a punishment: i wasn't present when my class take photos!! :( Went off to town where i walked from wheelock place to cineleisure lor! right anot hong san! :p

Waited for fish at the container till 5 plus, then me + nic + hong san + angie + fish + yanzi + yati went to makan at puncak. We walked a bit b4 slowly making our way to acid bar at centrepoint. It was sucha relief lor cuz my feet was hurting like hell can! All thanks to the shoes which i've worn onli thrice! Well anyway, i shared a drink with fish. Quite nice and its name is very er.......it's "sex on the beach". Yanzi paid for our drinks...thanks a million woman!

Sigh guess i was feeling quite troubled juz now; my mind kept wandering. Downed half a glass of heineken beer...which i nvr did b4, considering the fact that i hate the taste of beer. I thought i can do it - not letting it get to me - but apparently i cannot stop thinking about it. I think it's like what buddy say, "u will anyhow think at night one".

Wanna apologise to yanzi for leaving so early...can't stay out too late lah, what's more, i'm working tml (i can predict that i'll work OT tml =_= sian). Feel so bad about it...Sorry yeah? Hope u had a great time today! :)

Kays i wan go sleep liao. My eyelids have no more strength left. Nites ppl!

embraced the mystery
// 12:11 am

Friday, March 11, 2005

Ack halfway into the training, it started pouring like mad. Had to stop :( we were doing ball-controlling, passing it from blade to blade etc. Fun lah :)

Some of us went to pasir ris pri sch to catch the match between the guys and Tampines East Knights. Super fast-paced and can see that the guys improve a lot; their passing is good seh.

Wooooo i came late today! Juz arrived like 10 mins ago? Lol :D And wah lau, my fren was saying that she will do makeover for me...and she really brought her stuff today!!! Later i look so weirded how...today the shoes i'm wearing is like errrrrrr already lor! i would've worn slippers if i can but cannot :( i feel overdressed.

Yay today we gonna go out and eat together~ yanzi's bday! :)

embraced the mystery
// 9:10 am

Thursday, March 10, 2005

Aiyoooooo the forgetness bug has bitten me again. While i was on the train, it occured to me, at the same time, that i forgot to bring my shorts for training and money!! I think i'm very pengz-worthy lah =_=

Sms-ed my bro to see if he can come and pass me my stuff...i think he still sleeping sia, haven't reply...and i think i'll get an earful from him :(

Boooooooooo i can't wait to train later :) it'll be in school!

embraced the mystery
// 10:12 am

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

YAY!!! THE COVER OF "HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF-BLOOD PRINCE" IS FINALLY REVEALED!!!

I'm soooo excited now cannn!! Hmmmmm dunno which cover i should get...Heez check out the different covers!

children uk cover

adult uk cover

us cover

embraced the mystery
// 11:04 pm

"And it feels like ooooooo...but you don't know my name"

Heez i love this song by Alicia Keys. The concept of its music video is cute.

We had a game against Bukit Merah Sec yesterday. Blah the court is really small, like Pasirian's court size. Anyway, it's 4-on-4. Sigh our play yesterday was really messy. Our keepers weren't around, so we gotta ask the opponent's to be ours. Hmmmmm i dunno what to say lah...but many goals are really giveaways =\ but can't blame the keeper lah cuz she's new. Ended the game with a draw 5-5.

Bleah enough of the game. Aw hong san got injured! She kena elbowed in the eye...and goodedness i saw the blood lor! Scary...glad she's fine now...Hoi woman muz takkaire ok! After the game, jill sent hong san to get her wound treated, or should i say, glued. We hung out with jill at the cine foodcourt till it's gonna close! Proceeded to the youth park. Took pics and chatted. Heez i'm excited about the upcoming chalet + dinner at her house, if the planning for both is successful lah :D

At 2230, my mum called and alamak she sounded so angry on the phone! Took cab back with yati and haj and believe it or not, we managed to get a cab onli at 2250!! Waited so long and no cabs would stop for us >:(

Oh did i mention that i came really late for class yesterday? Heez yup, one of the rarest times. So ppl, muz go buy 4D cuz confirm strike lah :p

Hmmmmm remember the "i'm sucha fool" entry? I was really tired on that nite - worked 4 hours after school - but i couldn't sleep at all due to some new information i got. Well, i did some thinking last night and guess what? I'm not gonna care anymore. There are greener pastures everywhere. I'm prolly stupid for not making my feelings known but it doesn't matter to me anymore. I feel more stupid to be sad when it is the opposite for some ppl. Not gonna let this get to me anymore. Juz gotta let my feelings go...

Yay i'm a happy girl again :) (i hope so)

embraced the mystery
// 10:49 am

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

i've been sucha fool.

embraced the mystery
// 12:33 am

Monday, March 07, 2005

I dread working.

So much that i feel like quitting. Not becuz of the colleagues there; they are the friendliest ppl u can ever work with. In fact i was working with my bro's gf today at centrepoint :) I think it's this phobia that has developed within me: the phobia of meeting unreasonable/unpleasant-in-general people. Sigh...but i really wanna get a new watch and hp! =__= seriously contemplating resignation...

wow as cliche as this sounds, the truth hurts. always. and so much. and u'll never know when to expect its arrival. it can juz kick u right in the face in a flash of light.

ain't gonna comment much further...eh buddy, the next time i u-know-what, slap me hard! at least a wake-up call is better than getting kicked. don't wanna get that anymore...it certainly sucks :(

and the sad songs that's playing repeatedly on my lappie ain't helping!

embraced the mystery
// 11:48 pm

isn't it cute??? haha love this plush! but too bad, hard to find one like that.

i'm freezing.

embraced the mystery
// 10:56 am

Sunday, March 06, 2005

all i gotta say about my performance on court today against NUS Jupitans: i suck.

Went along with fish and yanzi after the game to catch the match between MI OSB and Swiss Club. Hmmmm it was very exciting, and believe it or not, Swiss Club nearly lost; OSB was leading by 2 at the end of the 2nd period. Final scoreline is 6-5, Swiss Club won.

Errrrr all i gotta say is, guys are damn violent and dare i say, rash? Fights almost broke out during the game. Scary...

Oh saw khalique's little sis and aiyo she so cute sia! Wahahah and may i say, nic's little cousin oso very cute can! Not forgetting nuris's little sis as well.

Okies time to watch tv. There's ru hua on ch8 now!

embraced the mystery
// 9:32 pm

Saturday, March 05, 2005

i'm addicted to "Desperate Housewives".

And damn there's still epis 16-18 that(if i'm not wrong) are not aired yet!!! Aiyo i can't wait sia!

Oh and i made a mistake about the twins. They acted in "Cheaper By The Dozen", not "Big Daddy".

embraced the mystery
// 10:00 pm

fuck that bloody stupid bitch who shouted at me in imm toilet juz now.

i accompany my gran to the toilet after we finished our dinner juz now at imm. i didn't wanna go so i juz waited at the sink for her, while she queued up. Ok so she was queuing in the center but come on lah, she's still queueing rite. Then upon realising the 1st 2 cubicles are squats, i told her to wait for the last one then. i did not say anything about cutting queue or whatsoever shit. Then this woman who was standing beside my gran in front of the last cubicle, turned round and told me this, "She has to queue up", and obviously her tone wasn't nice at all. My temper got the better of me and i answered back in a defiant tone that "she's already in the queue". She answered something and i replied "WHATEVER!"My gran then waved her hand at me, gesturing that i should juz let it rest, and she went to the back of the queue. THEN THAT BLOODY WOMAN WENT INTO THE CENTER CUBICLE WHEN IT WAS HER TURN. GEE WASN'T SHE QUEUING IN FRONT OF THE LAST ONE?

And she juz can't let it rest! When she came out and was gonna leave the toilet, she turned back and sorta shouted something again. Can't remember what she said exactly - my memory is always at its worst when i'm waaaaaay pissed off - but she said like, if i want people to give way for my gran, i should juz say it in a nice tone. I lost my cool and kinda shouted back that my gran was already in the queue and said some rubbish stuff that i forgot. Like WHAT THE FUCK right?! My memory may be poor but i certainly don't remember asking my gran to cut queue or ask anyone to give way to her! What the fuck is her problem!?

I was really boiling like mad. So much that i cried - not in front of that woman lah, after her departure that is. Argh i hate it but i juz can't help it. Dammit i don't like to quarrel with people(well my brothers are the exception) cuz i know i'll get very angry and start crying, which in turn makes me look like a weakling. Sigh juz like the other time when i met this really unreasonable customer and i juz couldn't stand up for myself cuz i know i'll start crying, which i did after the customer left. Was so embarrassed cuz my colleague saw.

Anyway, got outta the toilet and of course my family who were waiting for us, knew what happened cuz they saw the commotion at the toilet door. My mum was wondering who the woman was shouting at somemore. My brothers were really angry; the 2nd one was like one pai kia liddat, pointed at that woman and ask me "issit that one!?", which i find very funny when i think about it now. I didn't want the matter to blow up so i kept insisting that we get outta the place.

I DETEST PEOPLE WHO BULLY MY LOVED ONES ESP MY GRANNY.

AND I HATE THE GUTS OF THE PEOPLE WHO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF MY LOVED ONES.

I don't give a fuck if people bully or take advantage of me. They can do it for all i care. But not to my loved ones, FYI, aka my family and friends.

*borrow fish's word* Those fuckanathans who do the above to my family and my friends should juz BURN!!!

embraced the mystery
// 8:31 pm

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

I'm in sucha loss now.

Well, got to know that i'm not required to take any of the 2 given elective modules. So i thought, since i'm not passionate about doing a job in future that involves biomedical science - thus i won't be wanting to go Monash to do a degree in bms(if i can make it lah, that is) - i might as well juz get the diploma and pursue my interests.

I told my dad this. And he was like, questioning me what are my interests and what i wanna do in future. It juz struck me that i do not know what i wanna do at all. Couldn't answer him; not even abt my interests like psychology. I know it's prolly silly to wanna pursue psychology lah, but...sigh i dunno...i juz dunno anything anymore...my dad is like, kinda upset that i've decided not to take the module at all. He thought, since i have this chance, why not take it and go all the way?

I'm really weak in science, and i expect lotsa workload and stress - yes i know, it's juz all part and parcel of life. I'm afraid that i cannot make it at all. What if i fail halfway(yes i do have that much confidence in myself)? Gee i would be wasting my time like hell. Aiyah wo bu zhi dao already lah.

On the verge of pulling all my hair out. I do not know what i want anymore.

Juz a question to all: Would u take the elective since it can give u a higher chance to go to Monash; juz for the sake of getting a degree, but it ain't ur interest at all?

Oh and juz in case u're wondering, i'm not saying i confirm can make it lah. Juz some assumption.

So tired.

embraced the mystery
// 10:08 pm

Sports Psychology, Sports Nutrition, and Sports Event Management.

Ahhhhh i dunno which one to take! All seems really really interesting can! I would love to take psychology but nutrition sounds great, and event management seems to have better prospects, blah blah blah.

Whoa there's gonna be a life-saving ig in rp. So cool and i love to swim somemore. But......think i cmi lah, sigh.

VB is so boring. And i cannot skip anymore lessons :( i think my gpa is gonna suffer this sem; not doing very well at all.

B L A H !

embraced the mystery
// 2:05 pm