both of them reckon i'm partly to blame.
said something like, if i had gotten up earlier and get ready earlier, she wouldn't hafta rush. it wouldn't have happened.
i know i'm always slow, getting up later than i should. i know that. but i wasn't even rushing her yesterday.
it had happened and i'm supposedly the cause of it.
why?
upset. guilty. yet downright pissed. do they even know how i felt yesterday? might seem fine with a smile plastered on my face...but
do they? does she knows?
of coz
i know how she felt then and now. but that doesn't mean she can juz vent it on me. on us. and this isn't the first time the very-unreasonable-side of her venting frustrations on me.
and if she can recall,
she is the one who suggested sending me to jp everyday for school, not me.
now there doesn't seem to be any happiness in the house. like it has been sucked away. and to think cny is only a week away. with all this tension, this cny is prolly gonna be a sucky one.
been getting headaches frequently. prolly cuz of my eye? i dunno *shrugs* who gives a shit about it anyway?
my heart is crying.
embraced the mystery
// 5:47 pm
