Watching the OC while typing this entry (how stupid can Marissa get?! She juz don't wanna believe Ryan & Luke that Oliver has been lying all the time!)......hmmmm few things to update...my 2nd brother wuz enlisted into the army today...can't say that i don't feel sad...after all, i'm closer to him than to the other brother...haha kinda funny when i think abt last nite when we had a family dinner at the restaurant...my mum cried after the first dish wuz served! And this afternoon, after going around the island (where the training is held) briefly, and after lunch, it's time for us to leave...and whoa, my bro's girlfriend suddenly hugged him and cried!! Although she did cry in the car...hahah guessed they juz can't bear to part with him...plus, my brother is rather skinny...which adds on to their worries; they're afraid he might not be able to take it...but well, this is a process whereby all guys hafta go through and to be able to serve the country is an honour...(whoa i'm sounding patriotic all of a sudden!) oh well, what i'm eager abt now is to see how he looks with a crew cut, now that his long locks have been *snip snip snip*!! Hahah!! =P
Lolz sorta got distracted by the TV that i almost forgot that i'm writing an entry
Woohoo i'm rather eager to learn dance! Esp hip-hop dance! Reckon Jessica Alba danced like WHOA in "Honey"! And BoA too! Managed to download this video which teaches u the dance steps to "Valenti" which is the song i'm listening to now! But first...think i should lose some weight first =P
Sigh i'm feelin kinda lost right now...and sadness too...partly cuz i know i miss my bro...and partly also becuz of this guy whom i have a crush on; although i reckon it's more than an infatuation (ermmm shan't reveal any more info =P). Also, i dunno why...but the movie "Titanic" seems to affect me a lot...don't ask me why...i juz feel so sad when i watch that movie...the tragic ending; some ppl actually stayed onboard, not afraid of death and juz...perish together with the Titanic...and that scene when Jack didnt respond when Rose called and shook him...sigh i could even cry juz by listening to "My Heart Will Go On" which has the movie dialogue in it...It sorta, i dunno...it gives me mixed feelings and thoughts abt many many different things! Hahah guess i'm really super-duper complicated inside...that sometimes I really don't understand myself =_=" does that makes sense? Hmmm...but at least my heart is not that hard although i hate to cry in front of frenz/public...
Well, as u can see, my blog isn't designed yet...kinda lazy to do all the work now...shall leave it till i have the mood...but i'l still update...heeex~! Think i should update the other diary too....been neglecting it for so long......aiyo why i so lazy?!? How!? =_="
embraced the mystery
// 4:26 pm
